The first thing that really hit home was Elaine Pagels wonderful book, The Gnostic Gospels. All of a sudden the world of the early church was not as I had been told. In fact it was a confused market of ideas, all competing with different visions of Jesus and different descriptions of events I thought were historical certainties.

Then I decided it was all too hard and left it alone more of less for over 20 years.

It kept at me, nagging doubts that I would not address, then about 4 years ago I decided to do the research the reading and let the truth take me where it would.

Now I want to write about my thinking and experiences, hope it's not too boring!!